Yesterday was Easter. I had the pleasure of attending my daughter’s church and hearing a very good message about losing your Alleluia and getting it back. It spoke deeply to me.
There are lots of ways to lose your Alleluia (Praise God), like divorce etc. But I, of course, was looking at the loss of my spouse. However, any significant loss could cause the loss of our Alleluia.
When our loved one dies, we are shattered. Everything changes. For me, when Tracy died, I didn’t so much lose my Alleluia, but my Alleluia was broken. My faith didn’t waiver; my joy did not leave – but my heart was experiencing so many feelings that the Alleluia, while still given, was broken………just not right, not whole.
Over time, I have had my Alleluia restored. God is like that you know. There are several places in scripture that talk about Him restoring. One of my favorites is in Psalm 23………..He restores my soul. I love that He takes what is broken and puts it back together again – it’s better, it’s stronger. Gosh – I wish I never had to go through the cancer fight and losing Tracy. But since I did, I’m so very thankful that God walks beside me and is restoring me.
There’s a song that I love which talks about a Broken Hallelujah – it’s by The Afters. Here are a few phrases…………they have meant so much to me since losing Tracy 4 years ago.
I can barely stand right now/ Everything is crashing down/ And I wonder where You are………
Even though I don’t know what your plan is I know You make beauty from these ashes……..
You know the things that have brought me here/ You know the story of every tear/ Cause You’ve been here from the very start.
I’ve seen joy and I’ve seen pain/And on my knees I call Your name / Here’s my broken hallelujah / With nothing left to hold onto, I raise my empty hands to you / Here’s my broken hallelujah……………….
I pray that if you have lost your Alleluia or it’s broken, that you will look to God – the restorer of your soul and your Alleluia. Peace…………………