My apologies for being silent for awhile. Like most of us, it’s a very busy time for me. I promise to do this better as I move forward.
I would love to tell you that I navigated the holidays well. But I can’t tell you that. God was gracious and helped me through a difficult year all the way around. The holidays – Thanksgiving & Christmas – were more difficult this year than previous years. No idea why………………..absolutely no idea why. This is my 4th time around the block and I didn’t expect to end up in deep places. But God had other plans.
This journey is so unique for each of us. Some are doing amazing by this time on the timeline. Actually, I’m doing really well. But all of a sudden in the midst of doing really well, I crash. I’m betting you do too.
Can I just say that I believe there is a purpose in all this? Perhaps God is helping me deal with unfinished business………….closing another door……….moving forward. Maybe, just maybe this is going to make my 2018 better. The thing is, there’s no way to know except to continue moving forward and see……….I have to keep doing what I know to do and see what happens next.
One thing I learned this Christmas is that we can do MUCH better when we are with family. This is the first Christmas since my husband, Tracy, passed away that I was completely alone Christmas Eve and Christmas morni
ng. It was so incredibly lonely and sad. I felt cheated all over again…………..just being together with someone made all the difference in the world. Basically I just cried through it when I needed to and got through it till family arrived Christmas afternoon. But before you get feeling sorry for me, know that joy was flowing like crazy after my kids and grandkids arrived. Nothing like it to make my heart sing.
I hope your Christmas was less sad than mine. I hope you were with family that brought you great joy. I hope you were able to smile through the tears and realize that you made it !!!!! Great job! That’s awesome !!! We don’t have to deal with this for another year. So let’s look toward 2018 with hope & expectation. Peace & Blessings as you continue on the journey.